this year's love

"It's 3AM, I must be lonely..." I am not the type of person to force a relationship with anybody, whether it be friendship or otherwise. I think that forcing friendship contradicts the definition of it. You should want to hang out, be there for them, and just see them in general. And if you don't feel that way, it's not friendship. Period. If you force those feelings, it only makes you resent that person, consciously or unconsciously. I've had 5 best friends throughout my life. All different girls, all different times. Each one managed to hurt me in a new and fresh way. After number four, I decided to give up on "best friends." I'm not good at it. I didn't know if I was a shitty best friend, or if I picked shitty best friends. Or maybe a combination. The only thing different this time is that I know I didn't pick a shitty best friend. I know it's me this time. So maybe I changed too much, or maybe you grew out of me. Maybe. Maybe you

i am tired of being your rebound. his rebound. everybody's rebound. to you, and him: that's awesome, thank you for not talking to me for 3 months and suddenly being nice. i thought you were nice, but turns out, your girlfriend just doesnt want you. thank you. and the thing that gets me, is that i HATE being your rebound, but i don't ever tell you to stop. ever. because i keep hoping that this will be the time thats different. you've changed. you're not the boy who just wants me because he can. and then it hits me, you are still that boy. you didn't change. you probably never will, but i'll keep giving you chances, because thats what i do. that's what rebounds are for. and i am damn good at it. i just want someone to think i'm worth more. please change.